“First there is just one lily pad in a corner of the pond. But every day the number of lily pads doubles. It takes 30 days to fill the pond, but for the first 28 days, no one even notices. Suddenly, on the 29th day, the pond is half full of lily pads and the villagers become concerned. But by this time there is little that can be done. The next day their worst fears have come true. That’s why environmental dangers are so worrisome, especially those that follow reinforcing patterns. By the time the problem is noticed, it may be too late. Extinctions of species often follow patterns of slow, gradual accelerating decline over long time periods, then rapidly collapse. So do the extinctions of corporations.”
Keep letting go until you feel free, light, and happy.
It’s difficult if you aren’t there yet. But as you let more things go, it becomes easier to let more things go. I’m not talking about wealth or objects of desire.. I’m talking about the dead weight.. the demons.. the bad people.. the bad ideas.. the stuff you know is eating you up.. the stuff that makes you cry.. past hurts.. past pain..
How can u possibly swim in the “stream” with all that weight on your shoulders? How can you move on? Its pretty difficult…even Micheal Phelps will tell u to take the dead weight off your back…
I know what it’s like.. . I carried everyone’s issues on my back from poor past programming.. I was helpful and kind.. and of course… everyone being in need would respond with appreciation which would in turn re-enforce the behaviour in me.. but then it also created a bad loop cause I need appreciation from everyone else.. a losing scenario.. I stopped it by letting go of that need.. by watching a lot of Joel Osteen and realizing god/source has my back.. some soul food and deep lessons..
Some of you asked, what my “journey” has done so far for me:
First a little back story…
It actually all started in looking for joy. I realized a few months back, things have been way out of balance for far too long. Taking care of mom/dad the last 10 years. Dad had Alzheimers, which was triggered by a family trauma (losing money, financial crisis, don’t want to get into it) and his own poor health. I became unemployed and came back home… found all this tragedy and drama unfolding and became part of it. I thought I would help.. for a few years.. it became 10.. mostl of my own doing.. Mom got depressed and then I did.. for 10 bloody years… the dark days were unbearable.. often wanting to end it all.
But the last year or so, a close friend showed me that life isn’t supposed to be full of pain. She pushed my buttons, and made me smile. She inspired me to change, and said I don’t have to care about everyone. But that pattern was so strongly built in me by that point. She didn’t give up. She gave me a hint that joy was possible and showed me what it looked like. We went to the gym, and met friends, and ate good food. Life was good.. but then she left for her own journey.. and I started back with Hicks again..
My cousin showed me Hicks like 12 years ago.. I wasn’t ready then.. thought it was too much woo woo, crystals and pixie dust.. what are these people smoking?
I decided a few months back.. I would commit to some small moments of joy every day.. a laugh even.. a smile.. walking in public and not being so damn depressed.. thanks to my friend..
Then.. was the light switch.. “If source can’t make them see, what makes you think you can”. That line was for me. Mom is still in her limiting, small thinking bubble. So what.. i don’t care.. let her be. I could never say that a year ago. Dad is gone now.. he passed last year.. but its her. I was so caught up in saving for the last 10 years.. I lost myself. But that one line was it. It was enough to get me to see myself in the mirror once again. Its my life.. its a gift.. I knew it.. but I didn’t get it.
A side effect of saving others.. is that I didn’t save myself.. Single.. never married.. but I forgive myself.. I understand now it wasn’t them.. it was me.. and I’m working on it and things are changing for the better already..
I’m eating better and losing weight.. its me.. I get to decide.. and I decide good health..
Found a few web developers I can outsource to.. client contracts are coming.. people are actually demanding I send them an invoice! hahah.. a project I have dreamed of for 2 years is going full speed ahead.. and I found exactly, like I mean EXACTLY as if I created him myself… like down to the accent!!! That guy showed up.. I could kiss him LOL.. anyways.. happy happy joy joy….
I can’t talk just about Hicks without also mentioning Pastor Joel Osteen and Pastor Andy Stanley either.. google them… a must conceal and carry for me anyways..
Look for joy.. from there you will find a lot of answers. Life is not supposed to be painful.
The last few months..my journey.. maybe it helps you
Step 1: Get to the point where you DO NOT care what ANYONE thinks..like anyone.. like i mean.. anyone at all.. ever.. get to that point..
Step 2: Get to the realization that NOTHING in your current environment matters.. not TRUMP.. not the economy.. not your current job.. not your mother or father or wife or husband.. THEY can never live in your shoes.. they don’t read your heart like you do.. NEVER EVER ever.. Your current situation doesn’t have to dictate the future..
Step 3: Realize you can’t change anyone.. if source can’t make them see.. what makes you think you can? That was a big moment for me…Really get this one and a huge weight will be lifted off.. you will suddenly realize only one light source can be changed.. yours.. your fire can be stoked… if some others catch notice.. great.. but who cares if they do or don’t.. thats just bonus points..their time will come when they are ready for it.. just not now..move along
Step 4: Relax.. its all in your control.. meditate and focus on what you want.. just dream.. think.. smile.. laugh.. let all the pain go.. no barriers.. no limits.. think big.. dream it.. see it… kill the little voices of doubt that want to creep in.. Get to the point where you are saying.. “Hmmm.. you know I think I could.. hmmm.” ponder it.. and DON”T LET GO of it.. whatever it takes.. people will try .. your own mind might step in.. but hold fast to the little heart warming dreams..
Breathe in, breathe out. 20,000 times a day on average. It’s a metaphor for your life. When you are young and ambitious, you breathe in by getting money, sex, people, children, possesions, profit, and experiences. When you are old, you breathe out by giving everything away – your daughter to a husband, your home for a condo, your money for others, your time through donation, your energy for someone or something else. People who find themselves early in life, breathe in faster, and out sooner. Sometimes we go through a few cycles of this.
Are you a business owner, entrepreneur or inventor? You must read this. Seriously. Brilliant insight:
“I very frequently get the question: What’s going to change in the next 10 years? And that is a very interesting question; it’s a very common one. I almost never get the question: what’s NOT going to change in the next 10 years? And I submit to you that that second question is actually the more important of the two – because you can build a business strategy around the things that are stable in time”
“For all its material advantages, the sedentary life has left us edgy, unfulfilled. Even after 400 generations in villages and cities, we haven’t forgotten. The open road still softly calls, like a nearly forgotten song of childhood. We invest far-off places with a certain romance. This appeal, I suspect, has been meticulously crafted by natural selection as an essential element in our survival. Long summers, mild winters, rich harvests, plentiful game—none of them lasts forever. Your own life, or your band’s, or even your species’ might be owed to a restless few—drawn, by a craving they can hardly articulate or understand, to undiscovered lands and new worlds.
Herman Melville, in Moby Dick, spoke for wanderers in all epochs and meridians: “I am tormented with an everlasting itch for things remote. I love to sail forbidden seas…”
Maybe it’s a little early. Maybe the time is not quite yet. But those other worlds— promising untold opportunities—beckon.
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!